Why Do I speak?

Well, 3 and half months ago I was invited by a group to speak on Geeta and Krishna. It lasted for about 4 hours. The people liked it so much that they insisted that I should take a session every Sunday. Well, I am taking session every Sunday on Geeta and Buddha for about 1.15 hrs. About 150-200 people gather. Well I am asked pretty many questions in Q&A sessions. I would like to share a thing with you (though briefly): something very important is in the last part so do read the email fully.

Because u are that. Yes, if u don't remember does that in any way make u not that. I can see and experience so I say it. Once I know I am God I know u are God too. What I mean is neither I nor u is there, only God is there, one consciousness, the center that runs the show. I and u are just an illusion of this debris of time-space continuum. Tell me then who u are? A label, named xyz or a relation? i.e. in respect to. So what is ur absolute identity? Even a human is defined relative to...... So who u are? Ask it to urself. I say it so that we can come out of the dream we are in. Just shake, wake and yes u are that.

Language is defined to bring forth known things to both u and me. Tell me what is the taste of sugar?Sweet? What is sweet?Can u make me feel or make me know the taste of sugar by words or if I hadn't got the taste bud or tongue how will u define sugar, sweet or sour to me. U will define, but will I know it or feel it? Still: I would put it simply as a certain experience is termed as GOD. U can experience it, but not know it. But u need the sense like I need tongue. Can u see ur own eye by ur own eye. No u can see reflection of ur own eye, not the eye by the eye. Can I hold my left hand with my left hand? How do five senses know that which they are part of? So u may never know God, but u can be God. The experience of everything and nothing. The experience of Fullness and Universalisation. But as u need to open ur eyes to see sunlight. U need to close ur eyes, go deep into urslef and open the gate to ecstasy within. Just go into urself, because u are God so u can be God. In fact u are just to discover it!

Because I am u. who touches whose feet's? Do u experience God in urself? If not, I can't be God in u, it is ur illusion. This is the tragedy with us. What is not ours we claim to be ours. What we don't know we claim we know. Don't say I believe in God or don't if u don't know. Say I don't know. If u don't know the immortality in u don't say or think or believe in it. Forget Atman. If u experience immortality in u then say, then say atman. If u feel God in u then and only then u can feel God in me. And everybody. If not, it is ur illusion. Am I supposed to encourage the illusion? So I tell u not to touch my feet. But if u touch, I touch urs because u are God, how do I not love the God who is lovingly offering himself to me? In fact I see an immense possibility of Godliness in u. So I must bow to that. Again, I am u, nothing special, so if u must touch my feet, touch everybody else's and then come to me. I am no lesser or more God than u or anybody else. So plz. go into urself, be paraspar devo bhava. Instead of touching my feet. In fact only God is there so why bother?

See dear, I am u and when I say it yes. But then the difference is very minute. I never become angry or hate or love or am passionate. Yes, anger and hate, love, passions etc. come and go. And though u can say I hate, I am angry, I love, I am passionate. I just watch them like a show, like a play. I am just the watcher who watches the show. Very much like u. The thing is, we can become aware that we are just the watchers, the center around whom show comes and goes. Secondly from what u say, u seem to be saying that hatred and anger shouldn't come. Now that is a bandhan. If becoming angry is a bandhan, not becoming angry is also a jail. Thirdly, when I say everything is God, anger is also God, so is hatred, so is............. So who am I to become or not to become. God is and I watch God. So for me everything is Divinity as it is. Fourthly, as long as I am a junction of this body and .. there will be so called -ve and +ve points. Spirituality has got nothing to do with morality. Forget morality. There is nothing like Good and Bad except in the self-centered minds. If Bad was so strong that it can forego the Gods' wish then worship Bad plz. So in fact, Good and Bad both are divine. Fifth : plz. plz. plz. plz. make normality the basis of life. This is the biggest problem that we always make abnormal way of life and then bang head over it and ask why these have happened? What is this? What to do? Plz. be normal and set urself to be urself normal as u are. Don't make abnormal norms and idols. Rule the world with normal. Be urself. Which again means go deeper into urself. Shut ur eyes and go into silence within.

Well, do u ever ask why flower blossoms? Do u ever ask to river what inspires it to flow? So plz. this happens. When it happens it happens. And it is beautiful because I don't have to get inspired, I don't have to prepare to speak. It is not planned. It happens. It is way of life. Well, this way of life is because: As the famous song sung by Lata Mangeshkar yeh mulaquat ........ (Sorry, my foreign friends, email me for translation) :

Whether I have meet someone or not or however we have meet, through email or whatever, this isn't just a meeting. This is just an excuse: for the eternal love to prosper. Whatever be the reason, is just a folly. Actually it is just love, the love that was. As Krishna puts it Arjun we both have been here many times, the difference is u don't remember it. Yes, we have meet so that the love can flow. This is the reason I send you emails, this is the reason I speak. The love speaks. This and whatever that occurs is the saga of love. Whoever u have come across, even if u think of it as ur foe or friend or ...... U have come across because of love. There is nothing like friend or foe. It is all an illusion created by you through ur limit. It is because of love, eternal love. I let it flow!!

We are so much possessed by thinking that we are controlled by it rather than using it as Tool. We have lost the wonder, the feeling we had as a child. We see a flower and immediately we give it a name and think we know it, but do we? See a child who instead enjoys the beauty of flower as it is. As Tantra sutra says 'Put mindstuff (Chiit) in such inexpressible fineness above, below and in your heart'. Our chiit is in brain rather than the heart. As Jesus has said it 'only those will get entry into the kingdom of my god who have become child-like'. Child like not childish. Yes, I write so that we can be feeling, so that we can merge. U can know a thing only when u become that. So to know God is to be God. Yes, to merge heart to heart, the beats to beats so that the illusion of separations and ego are lost.

Yes, I am in the eternal bliss of my sanam. My sanam is God. I want u to experience the bliss I am undergoing. So I speak and write. The whole world lies at my feet. Yes, the whole world is God. What is Sanyas? Sanyas is the understanding, feeling and knowledge that happiness can't be got from the other. It lies within. The world is God seen from the illusion. And God, World seen without illusions. The illusion of the other. The illusion of getting things from other is Sansar. When I know only I and I can give myself bliss, the world is no longer there for me, even though it exist it doesn't. And hence it is at my feet. I am bliss!!, so are u experience it!

Yes, everybody lives in Dream. And even though it appears that a dream is fulfilled. Ultimately it never is. It leaves more undesired. And the dream grows. U know when a dream is broken it is so so ........ Well, we have to save them from being broken. And the only way we can do is to awaken. Only when a dream is seen as dream it is never broken. And the only way is awakening! As Buddha says it ' As there is a state of sleep, awakening, there is a state of awakening from this awakening'. Yes, the world lies in the eyes of perceiver. Once Buddha was sitting in a forest. A naked lady passed by running. Behind him came men. They asked Buddha did u see a naked woman pass by? Buddha replied ' I don't know whether naked or a woman passed by, I only know somebody passed by'. See the beauty, the world exists in ur eyes. U put ur dreams on reality. This is what Shankara calls as Maya. Bats see the world differently. Some beings see the same color u see as different. So what is truth? Yes, these dreams and attachment to it are cause of our misery. So the writing and speech come for this awakening!

Last but not least, we all are love temples of God and Shiva. Shiva which is bliss and also destruction. I speak so that I can make u my Gods. So that my love can flow to u. To u the Gods around me. To u the Shivas around me. To u The love around me. In fact our own existence is due to love. So love and destruction go side by side. +ve and -ve go side by side. I remain the watcher of all that happens, love, hate, mercy, anger, creation, destruction etc. but still in my locus I experience u as god. Because u all have a place in my heart. The place of God.