Freedom - The last bonds disappear!!

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It was really hard to decide whether to share this experience or rather being with u or not. But then .......................! Today I stand testimony to some words. I hv to use word I lots of time due to need of language. But if u take it otherwise it is ur problem .........Many of the Indians must be aware of the following words:

Full: (2) For all creatures / livings what is night, in that night the Sanyami person who has attained godliness remains awake. And when all creatures are awake in mortal, momentarily pleasures, that who knows, knows it as Night.

There are many philosophical translations and meanings given to above words. Some of them are true, but then the fact is the plain simple (1) translation is as much true and the ultimate truth. This clearly shows the need for experience b4 translation or ........... Anyway:

One and half or two years ago as I was sleeping suddenly an awareness crept me. I became aware as if I am awake, not sleeping. But my body wasn't moving. It was as if it is dead, like an iron. At first I was frightened thinking is it paralysis or am I dead? And it made me break my sleep, but the time between the body breaking the sleep looked like infinity, eternity. At first my eyes opened, but my body was still, I culd see everything, but culdn't move anything i.e. body, it was a solid dead iron. And then there was this gr8t fear of what is happening. And slowly what seemed to be eternity made the body come out of sleep totally.

At first I was so much frightened that I was deliberately avoiding this. But again and again I culd see the awareness creeping me. And then everyday. From that day I never see dreams. I can see what I want to being totally aware! Slowly all the fears melted and everyday, I was aware every second of my body sleeping. Amazing it was! I was away from the body! I was not the body!!!!!!!!!!!! Neither this body was mine!!!!!!!!!!!

Everyday sleep was like an anesthesia, the body getting heavy and heavy............... But most of it I was apart from the body, aware and awake. I can feel and see the body as separate entity, definitely not me 24 hours a day !!!

All notions melted, All knowledge melted, Luv Melted, Infinity melted, Nothingness melted, I melted, energy melted, Intelligence melted, All experiences melted, the quest melted, the awareness melted, the being melted, the seer, seen, seeing melted, the soul melted, the god melted, the Satan melted, the Meditation melted, the Bhakti melted, the non-doing melted, the Samadhi melted, the good melted, the bad melted and all bonds disappeared as if they never were there. Were they or I thought they were? Life was a play, a drama.

As Buddha has said there is one more awakening to this awakening!!!!!!! I culd realize it!!! And so culd I see the jokers around me playing jokes albeit seriously. For me these things suddenly appeared to be a joke! Not a joke by understanding, but .........

This is immortality! This is nectar! Cuz now u know that which is not born, that which never dies, that which is, whose nature is being!!!

The ultimate Freedom! Come and experience the experience where all experiences also go! .................. Who is there to experience? Both outer and inner attachments go. Both inner and outer materials go, melt and loose .........

And to this day when somebody craves for cars, money etc. and ......., I just tell the person come dear sit near me or dance with Godliness. Lets go deep within and u will get much much more than any physical ..................... Enjoy physical when u get, but right now this very moment u can hv much more and the cravings simple drop out ....................................

But I wuld like to draw ur attention to word Sanyam! Mostly ppl take Sanyam as controlling. No it is not controlling!!! who is there to control!!! And who will control and whom? U will make 2 parts. One fighting against the other and even thou it may appear that one part is winning, the second will win and the duality will go on for eternity! Morality is nothing but hypocrisy!!!! Spirituality has got nothing to do with morality!!! True real Morality, if any can come truly from awakening only!

Sanyam is not attaching urself to anything, any situation or any................ whatsoever. Not attaching!!!!!! Aparigrah as Mahavir says! Sakshi as Buddha, Zen and Astavakra says! Ram sneh as Kabir says! Sankhya Bhav as Suffis, Ramakrishna..... says! Luv as Chetanya and Meera says! Choicelessness (all choices are attachments) as Krishnamurthy says!

Can u lift ur left hand by ur left hand. Can u hold ur left hand by ur left hand? Well no, then what u see etc. isn't u. That's all!!!!!!

To see and be aware that I am not eating, the body is, I am not hungry, I am just getting the message that I am hungry! Really u just get the message!!!!! Well so on............................

This is the reason I thank our terrorists friends for letting me see and be this in our meeting! They culd do anything to the body! Not me! Details of this latter.

Is it possible? Yes, recently many ppl hv joined me to experience this at a stretch for 40 hours.......................................